It is spiritual warfare. Sometimes the attacks manifest symbolically as in your pig in bathub episode.
I recommend Gryphon's (substack) / Galahad Eridanus (youtube) work, starting with his oldest vids and articles. His work gave me great insight into why these attacks happen and what forces are behind them.
Thanks. I appreciate the recommendations. It’s hard to stick with the analysis because the enemy is invisible and you deal directly with the person. Hard to separate the demon from the human they possess sometimes. Though there are signs of course. Mostly in the eyes.
I can't tell you how similar our stories are. Every job, relationship, friend, acquaintance. Everyone I have ever been close to for any length of time have had the switch flipped. I had 2 “friends” who I would have done anything for actually tell people they were trying to ruin my life from the moment they met me for no reason at all. They could never give a reason that was “I just don't like her. “ Then why try to be my friend. Why go out of your way to " ruin” me. Why go out of your way to even befriend me. I never understood it. It happened at nearly every job. I had management tell me if it were up to them I would have been fired years ago. I excelled at every job I ever got and promoted within months. Most people who had been there for years hated me for that. I can't help that's just who I am. I give 110% because I like to. I was thrown under all the busses.
Here's where we are different.
In 2016 it broke me. I had a mental break like no other. I had a few small jobs after that with not much responsibility but I still couldn't do it I felt defeated. That's when I turned to drugs super hard. I was kind of always a closet addict but I never let it interfere. I was jobless my boyfriend was able to take care of our needs and I was able to take of my habits. I spiraled out contr9l for nearly 3 years. In December of 2018 I got clean. I became a recluse for a year. The rest of the store is rebuilding my mental strength to cope with daily life and not eating my feelings. It took 5ish years. And then I found you on TikTok. And my life was changed spiritually again. I had done the work to get clean and I had watched all these sober people live these great lives working and living and loving life. I hated it. I couldn't function I couldn't leave the house I couldn't hang with friends I couldn't be in public for too long without a mental break. I just wanted to be “normal” whatever that was. And then I made my household healing prayer. I carried it with me everywhere. I recited it in my sleep I sang it in my head while I did chores. I changed it while I walked my dog. Within that year things started to change. I couldn't believe it. It was really working. My anxiety was diminishing. My pain was dissipating. My dog was becoming my active at 10 years old. Mr boyfriends depression was fleeting. We were making moves. We were doing it. All because of you friend.
I know the odds are stacked against us. The powers that may be are all working against us. But we, the ones who know what is real and what is right keep fighting even with no fight left. Yes 100% we need rest. That rest is crucial. But we fight for what we know is right and we stick to whether and we build what is better whether it is here or whether it is in the world that can't be seen. Because we know what is happening can't be the only thing there is. This can't be the end. This can't be what this world was meant for. I love you brother. We were meant for greatness. Rest. The world needs you. I need you. We need you.
It is spiritual warfare. Sometimes the attacks manifest symbolically as in your pig in bathub episode.
I recommend Gryphon's (substack) / Galahad Eridanus (youtube) work, starting with his oldest vids and articles. His work gave me great insight into why these attacks happen and what forces are behind them.
Thanks. I appreciate the recommendations. It’s hard to stick with the analysis because the enemy is invisible and you deal directly with the person. Hard to separate the demon from the human they possess sometimes. Though there are signs of course. Mostly in the eyes.
I can't tell you how similar our stories are. Every job, relationship, friend, acquaintance. Everyone I have ever been close to for any length of time have had the switch flipped. I had 2 “friends” who I would have done anything for actually tell people they were trying to ruin my life from the moment they met me for no reason at all. They could never give a reason that was “I just don't like her. “ Then why try to be my friend. Why go out of your way to " ruin” me. Why go out of your way to even befriend me. I never understood it. It happened at nearly every job. I had management tell me if it were up to them I would have been fired years ago. I excelled at every job I ever got and promoted within months. Most people who had been there for years hated me for that. I can't help that's just who I am. I give 110% because I like to. I was thrown under all the busses.
Here's where we are different.
In 2016 it broke me. I had a mental break like no other. I had a few small jobs after that with not much responsibility but I still couldn't do it I felt defeated. That's when I turned to drugs super hard. I was kind of always a closet addict but I never let it interfere. I was jobless my boyfriend was able to take care of our needs and I was able to take of my habits. I spiraled out contr9l for nearly 3 years. In December of 2018 I got clean. I became a recluse for a year. The rest of the store is rebuilding my mental strength to cope with daily life and not eating my feelings. It took 5ish years. And then I found you on TikTok. And my life was changed spiritually again. I had done the work to get clean and I had watched all these sober people live these great lives working and living and loving life. I hated it. I couldn't function I couldn't leave the house I couldn't hang with friends I couldn't be in public for too long without a mental break. I just wanted to be “normal” whatever that was. And then I made my household healing prayer. I carried it with me everywhere. I recited it in my sleep I sang it in my head while I did chores. I changed it while I walked my dog. Within that year things started to change. I couldn't believe it. It was really working. My anxiety was diminishing. My pain was dissipating. My dog was becoming my active at 10 years old. Mr boyfriends depression was fleeting. We were making moves. We were doing it. All because of you friend.
I know the odds are stacked against us. The powers that may be are all working against us. But we, the ones who know what is real and what is right keep fighting even with no fight left. Yes 100% we need rest. That rest is crucial. But we fight for what we know is right and we stick to whether and we build what is better whether it is here or whether it is in the world that can't be seen. Because we know what is happening can't be the only thing there is. This can't be the end. This can't be what this world was meant for. I love you brother. We were meant for greatness. Rest. The world needs you. I need you. We need you.